Dark brown liquid taints the surface of my lips with remorse—while the neck of the laden glass bottle, causes a searing sensation to trail the hollow of my throat. My stomach swims in synchronization with its contents, and numbness lingers, ultimately obtaining its place. I refill the sharp silvered flask, and swig down “ease” and “clarity”, as the clock reads 4:02 (A.M)—yet, even interpreting such is a strenuous activity through my fog-filled vision.
I’d drink, I’d sleep, I’d wake, I’d rise…and the cycle would run on repeat. In my fault tears would fill my eyes, and the hollow organ beneath my chest would beat fiercely between my lungs—threatening to escape. I’d seek out clarity in all the wrong places—but through my broken state, I found it all again through God.
In relation, 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (ESV) reads, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
God is always present in the midst of our sufferings—and as we look to Him in faith—we not only find confidence in His capabilities, but contentment through His love. And even as we further develop in our relationship with Him, we still have yet to grasp the smallest sliver of His care, and the great extent to which He loves. However, as we gain a basis for comprehension, we begin to find ourselves lost in Him, rather than in that of our addiction(s). For, as we put our trust in Him, He overcomes us, but when we put our trust in that of our flesh, it consumes us.
Ultimately, we all struggle with addiction—in one form or another—but as we look to God, we find Him change our desires to line up with that of His. Even so, we all have moments in which we struggle, but during such, we are made strong through His spirit—and begin to feel hopeful, not hopeless.
Therefore, don’t let addiction overthrow you, instead let God overcome you. For, “…if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you… (Matthew 6:30 NLT).” Even during the times in which you fall, you will rise once more. For, as Christ overcame that of the world, so can you if you put your trust in the substance of your savior.